Gaze.

There’s so much to be said. So much that He’s doing in me! I’m overwhelmed… in the greatest way possible. He’s so refreshing. This time… it’s so refreshing. There’s been a lot awakened with me. I’ve realized that I really love the place of prayer. We spend a lot of time in prayer and intercession here. It’s beautiful; it’s the key… secret to life, abundance, the Kingdom, His heart.

Here’s a peak into a crazy revelation:

Psalm 27:4 – “One thing have I asked of the Lord, that I will seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to inquire in His temple.”

Here’s the thing… we have this life. We’re given this chunk of time. It’s our choice… each day filled with choices. We decide where our thoughts are. We decide where our mind will dwell. 

ONE THING. just one. One thing I will seek… is to gaze. To dwell where He is. Wherever He is- that’s where I want to be. Because when our eyes are fixed upon Him- nothing else matters!!  His goodness, beauty, love…it suddenly becomes enough!!! It becomes our portion for each day! It no longer matters where we are or what we’re doing because our eyes are FIXATED on the living God!!!! We have to know His character. Know that He is for us! He is on our side! So we choose either to live in that revelation or not. It’s simple. 

I’m just stuck. Stuck on Him. I can’t move my eyes. I’m caught. 

5:45.

So during worship this past Monday I felt like God was telling me the time 5:45. I didn’t really think of it much.. just kinda forgot and remembered later that night. I thought maybe He was saying to set my alarm for 5:45 AM. I was like..haa yeah right!! way too early.. so i set it for 6:30. Sure enough, the next morning, it’s still dark outside and i totally like spring out of bed. It was so weird! I never just wake up like that. Sure enough- i look at my clock- it’s exactly 5:45AM. ahhh! Yes, He totally woke me up! It was so crazy.

I went outside. Listened to the singing birds; they’re super loud in the morning! and He lead me to this:

“Let us go out early to the vineyards and see whether the vines have budded, whether the grape blossoms have opened and the pomegranates are in bloom. There I will give you my love.” (song of songs 7:12).

ohhhh my goodness. Thank you Papa! That’s all i could say. He’s so good. so I’ve been getting up at 5:45 every morning now. He meets me! It’s beautiful. I’ve also getting less and less sleep too- which is interesting. It’s okay though. He’s taking me to such higher places!!! When we actually live in the Spirit.. actually walk with Him and have a Kingdom mindset- little things like sleep don’t matter anymore. 

There’s so much to be said. So much is happening within my heart. Lecture is amazing!! We’re half way through now! Thailand/Bangladesh in august! CRAZYYY! 

I miss you all. so much!